Brian • Bonnie • Avery • Aspen • Tristan: Pregnancy

I wanted to post some of my pregnancy thoughts just because. (This picture was yesterday.)

I think I've craved sweets more this time and I don't really feel bad about giving in when I want. I was big into eggs at the beginning, but now not so much. I think I eat about the same amount of food now as when I was not pregnant.

I haven't noticed this pregnancy being cumbersome at all except for a few small things. One: It's really hard to turn over in bed and get situated; two: I have to gear myself up and hold my breath to reach my shoe strings and tie them; and three: I have to reach and bend over to do the dishes since my belly hits the counter! It's funny when I don't notice how close my belly is to the oven, stove, sink, or bowl and I get stuff on myself. I also can't just "squeeze" by people in the hall at church because this thing just doesn't suck in, no matter how hard I try... and yet I still think that it's skinnier to turn sideways to get through. haha. watchout!

I officially can no longer zip up my winter coat and I'm uncomfortable in all of my going-out pants (even the maternity ones); they just cut into my belly because they're the hip low-riser stretchy ones... I'm starting to wish they were all the ugly huge panel over the belly ones. I have one of those that are jeans (and tapered in at the leg mind you), as well as a red pj pants one... not many options for going out. That's okay, we stay at home mostly anyway and I can use those to work in like we've been doing lately. I must admit that I've worn them one too many times because I'm holding out for our new washer/dryer to get here on the 5th(!) I went to the laundry mat here once as we've transitioned to the new place and it was so expensive!! $2.50 for one wash. Plus it was just really inconvenient (and I don't even have the second baby here yet). Brian agreed we needed to get that washer/dryer right away, thankfully. I feel spoiled but oh so grateful.

A few more notes. A sad story this time: I bought a needed pair of maternity pantyhose at Motherhood for a whopping $16 (for ONE pair...outrageous, I know) and only got one use out of then until I snagged a huge run. So sad and frustrating. I wouldn't bother with them if it wasn't so in the middle of winter and frigid. At least my one black pair from last time is holding out (except today they decided they were too tight for my growing belly and kept sliding down). Not much longer to go; I can make it!

Alas, pregnancy has it's challenges, but to be honest- I feel like these all have been rather insignificant for me. And aside from some growing lower pelvic pressure/discomfort if I step the wrong way, I feel like a normal person. I feel great really. I've started to allow myself to indulge when people keep saying "oh, you're so small for being this pregnant" even though I never knew what to say to that. I can take it as a compliment; surely they say it to make me feel awesome, so I let it make me feel awesome. I really only care about if that means I'll be having a small coming baby!

I can hardly believe my due date is this week; I don't think I can imagine my body spontaneously going into labor at all... much less this very week. It feels very content where it's at I think. I wonder what it'll be like....

Meanwhile, I'll sit here writing endlessly in front of this super cozy fireplace. Ah. This is so nice. G'night everyone! (Can't wait to tell you when we have an arrival!)